Tears welled up in my eyes as I read the result: pregnant. Although not entirely unexpected, the news of the coming change sent a shock through my entire body. My heart pounded loudly in my chest and my mind raced from one thought to another to another.
I’d been planning and preparing for my upcoming move for months. With my son growing more independent by the day, my family’s new chapter in Colorado represented a new beginning for myself as well. I had come up with a long list of things I wanted to do and new hobbies I wanted to pursue, most of which weren’t exactly compatible with a changing body and a little one growing in my belly. All at once, those lofty goals seemed out of reach.
My last weeks in Washington were spent sick and tired in bed. The sightseeing I’d planned for my husband after his return was traded for quiet packing and lounging around the house. Somehow, we survived the four day road trip from Washington to Colorado. The weeks I’d hoped to spend exploring and building the life I’d dreamed for myself and my family were instead spent frantically house hunting and trying to entertain a toddler in a small hotel room for nearly a month and a half.
It took a little while to reconcile the high expectations I had for the beginning of my new chapter in Colorado with how things were taking shape in real life. Little by little, though, things began to fall into place. We eventually found the perfect home for our family and moved in without too much of a hassle. We reconnected with old friends and revisited old haunts. A weekend or two, we even managed to escape the stress of moving and go on a few adventures in the mountains.
As the weeks went by, the nausea, fatigue, and food aversions started to fade and my belly started to round. Thankfully, the first ultrasounds showed our baby to be strong and healthy. Day by day, my fears and anxieties about adding another baby to my family were replaced with new hopes and dreams for the future.
I still have a lot of big plans for my time in Colorado. Some things aren’t as far out of reach as I initially feared, while others have been pushed to the back burner for now. My pace will be slower, but life for me will turn out to be much richer than I ever imagined.